I thought of my old blog today as I stared disappointedly at the date on a different blog I was reading. The last entry Brian J. Fruzen had posted was an elaborately crafted Pathfinder adventure called "The Fall of Fairhaven". As a new GM (game master) for a group of my friends, I looked into the pre-created adventure, loved it, and added my own flair onto it. I plan to use it with my Pathfinder group in a week or so, and I was intrigued by the author's alternate ending with a world catastrophe about to reappear. I went back on his blog and realized that "The Fall of Fairhaven" was posted all the way back in April.... of 2013. I was disappointed, knowing that I would probably never get to hear what Brian J. Fruzen had concocted for a campaign against world-ravaging earthquakes and dragons.
I even got a little indignant, thinking that it was extremely irresponsible to give people an expectation that you'll continue writing, then squash their hopes and dreams when you never do.
Then I realized that I was being a hypocrite.
Now, I haven't really put out any earth-shattering, engrossing posts on my blog that would frustrate readers when I decide to stop writing for a year and a half, but that doesn't mean that I don't get emotionally invested in what I write.
I have a lot of thoughts and stories that swirl through my head constantly, but I don't let them out very often. I think that many people, including myself, have just gotten into the habit of keeping it all inside. As little as people want to hear about my philosophical and political ideas in casual conversation, they want to hear my stories even less. But I think that one of the wonderful things that the internet can bring us is the audience that searches for you. People who do want to hear about your intricate storylines will find you, just as I came across "The Fall of Fairhaven" because I was interested in Pathfinder adventures.
All the parodies that show bloggers and other people who post online as a multitude just shouting out their words to the masses have it a bit wrong.* Sure, on social media sites such as Twitter and Facebook, people have chosen to follow you, but may not be interested in hearing your every waking thought, but the beauty of blogs is that people choose to listen to what you have to say.
More importantly than putting my thoughts out there for the few that may be interested in it, and the fewer that will find them, I want to write more for myself. Actually writing a blog, and doing it well like Elle at Vicarious Vicissitudes, takes discipline. One has to make the time to write and then figure out a suitable topic. Then they have to take that topic, find out what they really think, why they think it, and make it suitable for the public. Bloggers also have to realize that what they have said is now out there for everyone to see. Every potential employer, friend, relative, or partner can now see what you thought about a certain current issue or a story that you made up in high school.
Which means that if I don't follow up the post with more posts, everyone is going to realize that I flaked out on writing my blog. Again. But that's okay; it means that I have a little extra incentive to keep writing, to feel confident about my ideas, and to share them with the world.
*Videos like this include: Things You Do Online That'd Be Creepy In Real Life and others, just search around :)